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A Relationship That Changes Everything

Today our pastor referred to Scripture in Exodus 33 in which Moses asked to see God. God told Moses that he could see His back, but not His face.

I wrote a note on the page of sermon notes, then I turned the page as Sam THEN asked, "What is it that you are looking forward to in Heaven?"

For the first time in my life my answer was not the streets of gold, or the loved ones that have gone before me..

What I had written on the page before was this:

I have seen His back countless times - but OH! - to see the face of God!

When I realized that my heart's desire was to see Him, the rest of the service was different. I love to worship, I love to sing his praises, I love to tell of the wonderful and countless ways that God has shown up for me over my lifetime...but today I worshipped at the front of the sanctuary, with "the dancers", arms raised, eyes closed, heart ready to explode with gratitude for His goodness to me. The ONLY thing that made it better was that my 5 year-old daughter would occasionally quit dancing and run to hold my hands or hug my waist and then go back to praising Him in HER own way.

If you don't have a relationship with God, it is NOT too late! You are not too broken, you are not too bad, you are not forgotten, you are not alone. God is SEEKING YOU. God redeems. He restores. He forgives. He LOVES.

I was saved and baptized before I was 12 years old. Yet my relationship with my Lord and Savior did not truly begin until about 13 months ago! If you see anything good in me, it is Jesus! I was broken. I felt like a lost little girl in a grown-up body. I felt like a failure and a lost cause. Even after the majority of my life was spent seeking everything BUT God, He showed up in mighty ways and has grown me and taught me that He was ALWAYS there and ALWAYS waiting for me to CHOOSE.

May I continue to chose wisely ALWAYS...may I NEVER go BACK.

AMEN.

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