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Matthew 14:7

So the other day I was praying (or actually speaking to God without really meditating on it, to be honest) and I get a response as clear as day. You see as a teen, I often played games with God where I would sit with my Bible and I would wait for God to show me a verse. Sometimes it was for me and other times it was to share with others, but always He came through. It was a lot of fun and I often remember those days and wonder why I don't just pick up my Bible (even when I am bored and TRYING to find something on TV to watch or looking for a book to read) and do it. So the other day, I was pulling my hair back (as it was to be a windy day in Oklahoma and I need little help from the wind to be annoyed with my hair in my face :o) and plain as day, I heard in my spirit "Matthew 14:7". I promised to look it up and as I finished up in the bathroom I was "paged" by a family member who needed my help immediately. The day began that way and finished much the same with me running around and around and by the end of the day I forgot to look up the verse. I promised to do it the next day and it was much the same - as it seems that we work harder around here on vacation that any other time! - and yet again the verse was forgotten.

As I sat in my chair, achy and sore from all the scrubbing and cleaning that my new old stove has required, I wanted to find something on TV...but couldn't. I remembered the verse and promised to look it up right away, so after turning on Hubby's stereo receiver to K-Love to come into the office and find my grandfather's old Bible that was given to me after his passing many years ago. I sat down, dug out the Bible and turned to Matthew 14:7 and could hardly believe what He told me. And I feel so ashamed that it has taken THIS long for me to find out what He wanted me to know. Matthew 14:7 says:
Thereupon he promised with an oath to give her whatever she asked. (NASB)

Wow! Do you understand now why I feel ashamed and embarrassed? He's promised to give me anything I ask for and I am too busy to even hear that promise - much less know what He said to me! One of the several things I WANT to do in the new year is to spend more time in His Word...and learning more of His Word. I have opted in to a challenge by Beth Moore on her blog to memorize just two scriptures a month and this is my first verse. I really need to dig into it and meditate on it. God loves me and wants to spend only time with me - that is ALL He requires of me and yet I pass Him by every day.

There was a time several years ago that I longed for, YEARNED for, a relationship with my father. Long before Christmas I left him a note that said something like, "for Christmas, all I want is your TIME and if you cannot offer me that, I want NOTHING from you." We were leaving to visit my family in Tulsa and walked out to our car to find our front porch entirely covered with gifts...but my father was no where to be found. He had broken my heart yet again and I am LITERALLY just realizing that I cause God to feel like this every day when I look at His Word and think, "I'll read it later...I've just got too much to do."

Thank you to all of you for reading something that I just really needed to get out of my head and put it out there to ponder it for a bit.

Prayers for 2009 to include much time in God's Word and God's love! Many blessings to you and yours!

Comments

Wilderness Mama said…
Wow! Isn't it so incredible how God gets His message through to us in non-audible ways? I'm so sorry to hear the story about your dad but it is clear that the experience has helped you anyway. Everyone sets an example, good or bad, and he set the example of what NOT to do!

I feel that God is drawing His children closer to Him, more than usual lately, if that makes sense. There seems to be sort of a quiet, underground revival going on, at least that is how it seems to me. It is very exciting!
January 3, 2009 at 6:27 PM
valerie said…
I am also doing the two verse a month memorization Beth M.
mentioned. I'm memorizing Psalm 139...which happens to have exactly 24 verses!
God has such amazing promises in His Word. I've gone through so many years of not really realizing what all God had for me. I can truly say that now I start studying and getting into the Word and don't want to stop.
I started doing Beth Moore Bible studies about 7 years ago and listening to her teach & I realized I wanted that close relationship like she had with God. He really is amazing.
The story about your dad made me sad. I'm so sorry. Thank you for sharing from your heart. This post blessed me.
Love,
Valerie
January 4, 2009 at 2:46 PM
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